When I first entered matriculation, I never thought of looking for someone here. Maybe cause I already had a boyfriend. But then, things took a turn when I broke up with him. People had been asking me why it happened because my ex wasn't the one to express feelings so, I had to spill it out for them. Truthfully, there were a lot of reasons to why it happened and the actual reason was actually because I lost feelings for him. And it didn't happen after we broke, but it happened towards the end of our relationship, I had to take some time to gather my courage to break it off to him. Anyway, after we broke up, I wasn't planning on looking for anyone else because I didn't think I'd have enough time to thoroughly know someone since I only have a year to be spent here. Fortunately, I was wronged.

I met someone, a month after I broke up, and we started getting to know each other, we got along so well that I felt like I've known him for a long time. After 4 months of being friends, I decided that I was in love with him. Or, if you assume i'm too young for love, let me just put it into another sentence: I have deep feelings for this guy. This guy, which is my current boyfriend is one heck of an amazing guy and I wouldn't trade him for the world. He treats me as well as I deserved, and he makes me feel like I am the only one in his life. Thankfully speaking, I am beyond grateful that I have someone I truly care about and returns the same amount of love I provide him with.

For some people,  4 months is actually short to actually get to know someone, but it didn't feel that way with Afif. I just clicked with him instantly and he made me feel like I was made for him in this world. This is cheesy, I know but if I were to be honest about how he really makes me feel, this is it. No more sugar coating, no more bitter truths. I love him as who he is, his imperfections and flaws better. He makes me wanna be a better version of myself and that's what I look for in a guy.

The best part is, he's never smoked. It's very rare to find guys who don't smoke nowadays because apparently smoking is a norm in every parts of the world and to some men, you're not manly enough if you don't smoke. He's also very friendly and chatty, everyone likes him in his own way, he gets along with everyone easily and he cracks me up everytime. My laughing gas, my gossip partner, my acai for life.

Sayang, if you're reading this, I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and honestly, I have never felt this with anyone else before. It's a different kind of feeling. It' the one I would feel during happy endings in movies, except this time, it happens for real. You are my prince charming, you are my dream come true. You have everything I look for in a guy, so don't ever change yourself because you're perfect just the way you are. You can tell me all your flaws and imperfections all the time but I'll still love you nevertheless. Thank you for the endless times you've treated me like a princess that sometimes I wonder if I ever deserve such special treatment from someone. You have been nothing but a blessing to my life.

Please stay, please don't go. I love you sayang, I always do ♡