14 - love from a 17 yr old's pov
love, love, love.
Saturday, March 19, 2016
The first time I had a crush was when I was 9. This guy was really cute and we were pretty much friends at first, until I saw something in him psh. Everyday after school ends, I'd wait for him outside and pull his bag and talk and kononnya 'benci' dia but just like what orang tua tua selalu kata, benci lama lama jadi cinta. That became true.
Anyway, a new kid came in and he was pretty close with her, or maybe from my perspective, that girl was being menggedik with my crush. Oh, God know how much I cursed at her. Without realizing, that girl actually hated me too because that girl became HIS best friend since they were in the same class. I was hurt because I didn't think my position in his life would be replaced by someone else. But I continued liking him.
Blah blah blah stuff happened and that guy liked me too hahaha! We would go back together and although our actions didn't symbolize how we both fell for each other, it was still love.
Love is different in the eyes of many.
I find love to be a 'too-good-to-be-true' kind of thing. Love is an amazing feeling. The feeling of loving and knowing you're being loved, it's overwhelming. Of course it takes both sides to give full commitment and support in order to make the relationship work, but I tell you, if you really love the person, then there's nothing to be regret of. Never regret in love. Like let's say you love this guy and this guy loves you too, you guys kind of have something going on but then after time passes, this guy says he loses his feelings and you guys never talk again. Never regret how you fell for him. It's lumrah, having feelings for someone. Just because he hurt you, doesn't mean it was wrong for you to fall for him. It's okay. People fight, things change. Move on.
I can't say much since i'm only 17 and puhlease, what does a 17 yr old know about love anyways? Too young right? But.. it honestly doesn't matter. It doesn't affect anyone else's life if I love too early or too old. What matters is the action taken after that. Whether you decide to confess, or hold your feelings back. And if you're a girl, and you confess, girl I gotta say you deserve hella praises for that. I find girls who confess first rare and have the damn guts because, society makes it look that way. I'm not trying to blame on society tho, I mean I am a part of the society and all but society has set limits to what girls can and can't do and that sucks.
Biar la perempuan nak tegur laki dulu, biar la perempuan nak confess dulu. There's no wrong to that. There's no such thing as 'perempuan takda maruah', 'murah' shits like that unless la if you confess to 3 or 4 guys after that. This is the misconception of confessing. Bila you confess, make sure you really love the person and you're SURE of the feeling. You know it's there. Bukannya bila confess, still teragak-agak with what you feel. No. You don't play with these kind of things. Or shall I say, feelings. You take feelings seriously okay.
Tak affectnya ego kau kalau confess dulu.
Maybe I have felt love, maybe i've not. But one thing for sure, I know it's something amazing :) xo