13 - drama fest.

Friday, March 18, 2016

It's freaking 3 a.m. in the morning and only then I'd say I have much space to think, enough time to blog. I basically only have 1 day left before I leave for maktab and prepare for drama. I find this a shock even to myself but I am the scriptwriter and the director for this year's drama and it's very nervewrecking. Being the director is, needless to say, a heavy burden for me and an intense work since our maktab has always proved victory in drama, I will have to keep the same momentum for this year which means.. winning the drama fest again. Winning is not easy, of course. It includes 100% commitment, countless effort and luck. Yes. You need luck for these kind of things. Somehow, our maktab managed to get lucky in every drama fest hahaha!

My daily routine in maktab lately has been closely related to drama. Like I barely go for preps, seriously. Every time is possibly spent for drama and the same thing will happen when school reopens. Except, this time it will get a little more chaotic because we're leaving for MRSM Jeli this Thursday. So, that means more practises, and less playing around for the drama team! I don't know what to say about the whole drama tho, it's not like fully ready and i'm very scared but there's no use panicking without taking actions, right? So the time that I have now during the holidays is only being used for drama stuff. Whether it's looking for costume ideas, placement of props, changing of music etc etc, it's always drama.

I've been very busy indeed and I admit, I was lacking of time to study. My homework is being entirely neglected because apparently, I only have the time to do them after 12 am, and I HAVE TO SLEEP because I get very tired and my eyes get droopy so there's no use staying up when I can barely hold a pencil without resting my head on my arm and forcing my eyelids to remain open. I'm not blaming drama tho. It was something I chose to get involved in. I knew what were the consequences, and i'm taking the risk so.. no harm intended okay? I'm not complaining.. i'm just.. expressing my messed up mind and self at the moment.

Besides, I promised myself that after drama ends, I'll get back to SPM and i'll drink tons of coffee, stay up, never sleep, study 24/7, don't get involved in anything else, do stuff nerdies do, you know? Yeah. Those kind of stuff. Whatever. Despite all these difficulties, I like being busy. It makes me feel like wow I have a purpose in life. LIKE I'M NOT ACTUALLY USELESS HAHAHA! It's just that I need to balance out curricular activities and studies so that I achieve victory in both aspects! Now that's a real life goal.