12 - It's okay to feel insecure. 

Being insecure is like a major trend to majority of the girls in the whole world right now. Especially with the existence of numerous amount of self-revealing apps like musical.ly, phhoto and triller, teenagers get to expose their physical appearance. However, this brings unfortunate impact to the people with low-confidence level, making them feel as if they're not as attractive because apparently, physical characteristics matter when you're at this teenager phase.

Most pictures in IG where girls would upload their selfies, you'd at least see one comment that flunctuates their drop of self esteem. And i'm telling you, that it's okay to feel insecure of yourself but it gets bad only when it takes a toll on you. Like when someone gets insecure so hard that he/she actually decides to commit suicide. Now that's when it gets dangerous. What i'm trying to say is that, it's normal to feel insecure. I feel insecure of my friends too. Sometimes I feel like I am not eligible to be their friends because I am different, I don't have good looks, not like all of them. I feel that too. But I don't take it in the negative way, I don't let it affect me deeply instead, I learn to be better because of it.

If my friends were a bunch of smartasses, I'd study harder not with the intention of beating them, but for the sake of my own good self, they only work as the motivation. If my friends dress nice clothes and take good selfies, I'd sort out my outfits again and try out make up, maybe I'd look better with make up? 

I change for the sake of my own satisfaction. Not because of what society made me believe in, not because of those jerks who told me I wasn't pretty enough. No. 

I am acknowledged that not everyone in the world is an optimist. (like me huhu) Therefore, it's harder for some people to cope with the insecurity. If any of you out there who's having trouble with self-confidence, i'm telling you that YOU are in no place to put yourself below than others. Like i've said in my previous posts, we are human and nothing differentiates us other than our knowledge and personality. That's the only thing that matters, okay?

If you don't feel beautiful enough, put that away because you're beautiful in your own style. You have other qualities, yet to be discovered that are far more worthy than just physical appearances. You have potential in other things that may lead you to a better path rather than having an adorable face. You don't have to keep up with people's definition of beautiful because they're so stereotypical and common. You're unique, you're rare. You don't have to be perfect to be the best. Be you, that's even more amazing. Remember that. 

I used to have a very low confidence level, I never felt attractive. People paid more attention to my friends before me. I wasn't smart either. I didn't really socialize because I was scared that people would judge me for every word that comes out of my mouth. But, how long until i'm gonna live my life for other people? How long am I gonna live my whole life thinking negatively of myself? That's not fair. I want to live a happy life too. I want to be good too. 

From then on, I started taking actions because at one point, I realized this is my life, and life's too short to listen to judgements. I started talking to people, dressing for myself and changing myself for ME. I became more confident as days passed by and alhamdulillah, I am happy with everything that I have now. Always start your day with a smile, with a positive thought that you're gonna love today and the next possible days of your life. 

Make the best out of your life!